Hannah (Host)

Trigger Warning: This page contains gore, body horror, blood, mentions of Sexual abuse/Self-harm/Suicide, CP, discussions on personal experience with mental illness and artistic nudity

Name: Hannah

Age: 32 (In Headspace assumed 32 but is outlandishly old)

Species or Race:

Human(Formerly)

Human/demon Hybrid (Formerly)

Grim/Werewolf Reaper Hybrid (Currently)

Soul Trait: Dedication

Smells: Like black Orchids and Shea butter

Special Permissions:

I'm down for NSFW art and Fics of me but I do not want to be featured in any works that harm children.

External Galleries:
Hannah NSFW Art(Sexually Explicit Art)
Hannah Gifts and Commissions

For information on old Hannah art and how her identity has changed over the years please check out:
Hannah Internal Evolution Gallery

Partners:

Nash (Mate)

Family:

Melancholy/Baggs(Ex Partner)

Nash(Mate)

Luck(Son)

Leto(Daughter)

Lucia(Daughter)

Lenore(Daughter)

Tobi(Son)

Leon(Adopted Son)

Clk(Adopted Son)

Error(Shares Soul)

Scribbly(Shares Soul)

Eden(Paradoxically connected to Eden)

Job:

Reaper(Current)

Empress(Current)

System Host(Current)

Likes:

Video Games, Tiny Things like dioramas, Ferrets/Stoats, Horror movies, Haunted Houses, 1950's to 1960's Fashions, Family/Domestic Life

Dislikes:

Abusive Men, Non-Committal Men

IRL:

Hannah is the host of Eden.

Officially we split back when we were around 6 or 7 after our sister died and since then she's had visual and audio hallucinations of everyone in the system. At one point believing she was haunted when in reality it was an alter trying to communicate and protect her.

Many of us appeared as shadow people, body horror esc abominations that looked painfully real, vivid night terrors.

We have attempted suicide multiple times but normally an alter would force front and then sabotage it. It took until we were 24 to 25 to really stop and now the worst of it is when we have panic attacks we beat our legs as a form of self-harm.

When one of us was too upset the physical body would just go completely limp and numb for hours, sometimes days.

Alot of the trauma that made us stemmed though from various acts of sexual abuse that started when we were 14.

The worst that still impacts us today is that we were groomed by the brother of our ex boyfriend. We were 14/15ish at the time and the brother was 25. He raped us, took nudes of us, sent them to my little brothers friends when he was in middle school and posted my CP online.

Currently that CP is still in circulation, we have tried getting help but the combination of how dehumanizing the process is in America along with the slut shaming, death threats from parents/educational staff/strangers, along with other men who actively saw the situation as an opportunity for them to also abuse us and the forced death of our unborn baby was so bad we stopped trying.

Currently we have seen pictures of Gronk making CP that looks very similar to the CP that was taken of us so I do heavily believe our pics were used as training. No we don't want to seek legal action, we just want to be left alone.

But we actively refuse to go on X because it is a hotspot for our abusers to use that material to continue to harrass and torment us.

False Memories:

Hannah as a slew of false memories. Being what we are these 2 sets of memories squish ontop of eachother and play in parallel so they can be incredibly confusing.

The core narrative was always the same, Hannah was violated, made a deal with a demon to protect her and now was lost between worlds. Worlds that had monsters, demons, creatures. No rhyme or reason just an open expanse of horror where her predator was also her protection.

Her personality divided between guardians:

The Heart

The Mind

The Body

The Soul

The Hatred

The demon would take over if she was in danger.

This was the lingering narrative for a very long time but it was always fluid and that lack of an emotional anchor fed really hard into her lack of identity which caused alot of spiraling.

That was until Hannah rediscovered Undertale back in 2023.

When Hannah found Underverse all of the above started to click into place, the fluid uncertainty grounded itself and then all the pieces that never fit and felt odd. It just suddenly made sense like we knew it all our lives.

So here is the narrative the brain latched onto:

Hannah was a human, a human who made a deal with a demon to end the genocide runs. She got her wish but it allowed the demon to feed on an entire timeline turning Hannah into an outcode, the timeline and all it's souls fused with her own. A wanderer who doesn't belong anywhere and any time. Hunted and hated unable to die she blacks out and kills everything.

The events of DD/:TheENDtale is this portion of her memories.

Eventually the paradox of her existence created a pocket dimension named Eden, a world formed from the wishes of her warped soul, longing for a place to call home.

It summons those across all of time and space to her side, souls just as lost as her that long to heal and become something more.

Good an evil don't exist here. Money isn't used here. Eden gives you enough to be comfortable.

This is current headspace that defines the logic of our internal home.

The guardians listed above are manifestations of Hannah's Determination to live and survive. Each holding a core that Keeps Eden stable. The Cores can be inherited to whoever will take on the responsibility of whatever they hold. 

We believe the act of the deal is very symbolic of how even with the best intentions cause harm. That bad actors can take advantage of a hopeful dream, violate it and the choice of how to face the wounds of that violation determine how we moved forward and the future we create. 

We can either fall into a cycle or we can create something new and use the wounds to become the foundation for something better.